MAGI-FEST

Ryan and I had the most amazing time at Magi-fest!  We are already planning our trip for next year!!  I was surprised to see Jacob and Todd there.  That was a nice surprised and Jacob and Ryan ended up on stage twice!  Tons of stories and pics coming in the next week.  Stand by for more!!

Magical Weekend

Ryan and I are going to Columbus for the weekend.  There is a magic convention at the Crown Plaza.  His math/magic teacher is going and invited some of the kids to go.  It is expensive but we got an amazing discount.  Ryan is very excited.  It is Thursday evening all day and night Friday and Saturday!  We are going to stay with my brother Aaron and Bethany.  Should be fun. I will get a lot of reading and posting done.  Just a guess that lectures on magic may not keep my attention.  Though I am looking forward to all the shows.  

Now I have to get everything we need together and get the GPS together.  I never do the driving when we go away, Kev does so pray for Ryan and I we don't get lost...lol

Have a great day ladies!

Fertiltiy Woes

So some of you may have seen on Facebook or actually talked to me but Kevin and I tried 3 times this past year to get pregnant.  We did 2 round of regular IVF and 1 with a donor egg and still no baby.  It is so expensive and so hard emotionally, physically I can handle.   We have 1 frozen embryo left, from our eggs.  But it would cost another 3000 bucks plus drugs to try it.  Only 50% of embryos survive thawing and you don't know that until day of the transfer and then it is only MAYBE 20% chance of getting pregnant if it survives the thaw, if it is as high as 20%, PROBABLY LOWER.  I may have to face the fact that it is just not meant to be.  I don't want to, I want another child so badly.  I know so many people who are way too young, or don't have the money to take care of a child who have them.  People who have beautiful babies they ignore.  It all makes me so angry!!  I am trying hard not to be a downer, why can't I have one, why does she have a baby, those things go through my mind daily.  I am trying to not feel that way but I do!  Believe me I know how blessed I am to have Ryan, he was a 1 in a million chance, an actual miracle and I could not love him more.  But that is part of the problem, he loves younger kids so much and is so good with them.  He would be an awesome big brother and he really wants to be.  I hate disappointing him.

The big kicker is we had to go through all this stuff because of Kevin's chemo.  He had a sperm count of 6 when we had Ryan.  They used an experimental process to give us my precious baby.  Well we tried again when Ryan was 3, no go.  A few years later I was having crazy periods and went on birth control to control it.  WELL...this time we decide to try again before I turn 40, we start with all the tests again just to see where we are, well Kevin had a normal sperm count.  we were STUNNED!  We thought finally, we can do this an easier way and much less expensive, we thought we were looking at artificial insemination.  Well nothing is easy for us.  I now have block tubes.  What are the chances??  Maybe is I hadn't been on the pill we would have had another baby.  The what ifs go on forever!  But it is what it is!

Wow is this a TMI post.  But I wanted to let you know ladies know what was going on.  I have asked for prayers but now I don't even know what to ask for.  Luck in trying again?  Money to even give it a try?  Peace to accept that it just isn't going to happen??  I don't know? 

I am very fortunate to have the wonderful family and happy life that I do.  I know this and most days it is enough.  I just needed to vent!

GOOD NEWS!!!

Actually that title should be AWESOME news.  My friend Sherry is healthy!  Her MRI was normal today!!  What a wonderful answered prayer.  This girl has been through so much and is still so positive and happy!  She is one of the best friends I have ever had and we have only known each other for about 2 years, we have been friends for even less.  Sherry, Sarah and I have become instant best friends!  We call ourselves the TRIO...lol. 

I hope everyone has had a great new year so far.  Ours has been nice.  We have made our plans for our next Disney trip in June, I can't wait to see the new fantasyland.  Nothing much else going on.  Ryan is doing well in school although he is getting a B on his report card.  Kev has been working.  I have been at school a lot, working on the yearbook and helping with math classes.  I start work on February 4th.  I only work a few months a year for my uncle Len who has an accounting business and needs help during tax time.  

That is it for now ladies!!  

 

We are back people.  I think it will be good for all of us to start blogging again.  Facebook is great for everyday little things, games and pics but I miss our blogs!!  Really telling each other things, keeping up on each other's lives.

I have made a couple of really great friends since we last blogged.  The picture above is my friends Sarah, she is awesome.  Our other friend Sherry could really use some prayers right now, so if any of you have a minute say a little prayer for Sherry.  She is a breast cancer survivor and has to have an MRI tomorrow for some problems she is having.  Please pray it is nothing serious and the cancer has not returned.  She is an amazing person, a great mother and wonderful christian woman.  I truly love her and pray this is nothing serious!!

How are things going with all of you ladies??  I hope I can find your blogs!  Until next time, love you my friends!