Pregnancy

I am going to say this one more time so maybe, just maybe my sister will hear it. I am not trying to get pregnant. I would love to have another baby, in fact it would make my life perfect. I mean that the only thing I want for in life is to have another baby, everything else I want I have. I really do have a wonderful life and I need to remember that when I want a baby so badly. It is not fair to put my family and son through that again when we have no success. I mean if I went through the whole process and had a chance to get pregnant that would be one thing. But last time we spent about $12, 000 to have not 1 egg fertilize. I mean we went through it all and didn't even have a chance. Not to mention I can' t have my allergy medicine which makes me miserable and it is very hard on Ryan. I have to get 100s of shots that make me sore, I am tired, that with no allergy medicine does NOT make me a good mom. Not to mention what my poor husband has to go through, with my mood swings and fear of needles. It can't be easy to stab a person you love when you know they are terrified and sometimes crying. We have to be home and prepared to get the shots at the right time everyday for a couple of weeks, that can put a damper on all plans we make. Plus the worst part last time was when Ryan got mad at God. We had to explain to him that there were needles in the house and of course he wanted to know why, so we very simply explained to him that Mommy needed help from doctors to get a baby in her belly and that I had to get shots. He of course wanted to know when the baby was coming, we explained that the doctors help us but I might not get to have a baby, it was up to God. Now we did this of course thinking and praying it would all work out, never imagining it wouldn't work and when we told him there was going to be no baby he would then be made at God. He said for almost 2 years after we tried, (in everyday conversation), if God ever let's me have a baby I hope it's a boy or things to that effect. He now doesn't want a sibling, he told us he'd rather have another dog. ( This conversation came about after he and Grammy wished on a star and she wished I'd have another baby.) So all those things considered I would be very selfish to try again for something I want but really have little chance of ever having. I hate that every time I change something in my life people think I am trying to get pregnant. I hurt my back and can't lift anything and they all look at me funny, hoping that they may get another grandchild or a niece. I don't drink caffeine and again everyone assumes and worse than that hopes again. I hate the fact that I have to get the hopes up of my family and then disappoint them, ( you can't imagine the pressure),so if I was to try again I wouldn't tell anyone but I wouldn't lie if asked. I just love all the reminders that I can't have another baby,it's just great. Having to assure people all the time or having people tell me all the time, oh you should have another one, things like that are not easy. I want a baby so badly it actually hurts sometimes, but I am not trying again. Also I am in a wedding in September and have a Disney trip right after that. I can't travel pregnant, I'm not allowed and I wouldn't fit in a dress I already have if I got pregnant, so there are 2 more reasons to believe I am not trying to get pregnant. Quite frankly I am NOT use to not getting what I want, I know that sounds bad but it is true, eventually I get what I want so this is very hard for me and very humbling. SO there it is for the whole world to see, well blogger world anyway.

Product Review

Every once in awhile you get that product that actually does everything it says it will do. Just thought I would share one with you girls, especially for you girls with dogs. Kev got me a Dyson vacuum a few months ago. I had an Oreck before which I loved but the cord got messed up and well that isn't important, the point is it still worked but I needed a new vacuum. So Kev comes home with a Dyson which at first I thought he was nuts. They are very expensive and I was guessing they didn't work well. Well I was WRONG!!! This thing is amazing. For anyone who has been to my house and met my dogs you know the one problem is their hair. It is horrible and everywhere, no matter how much I vacuumed it was always there. So anyway Kevin comes home with this thing, puts it together and starts vacuuming the floor I had just vacuumed. You would not believe how much stuff came up off the floor. I mean I had just vacuumed with my Oreck , the Dyson has a clear container on it and it got about 3 or 4 inches of hair in it. I had just vacuumed. it was unreal. I was impressed but figures it would keep performing that well. Well tht was in April and I still love this thing. Hair isn't nearly the problem it use to be, my carpets are cleaner and I think mine and Ryan's allergies are better. So they are expensive but well worth the money. AND best of all I don't have to go to the Oreck store for expensive bags anymore. Just thought I'd share.


Oh one more product for per owners. Again like I said shedding is horrible with Goldens. We got a brush for our girls that is unbelievable. It is called the furminator. It gets all the under hair that they shed everywhere. I have bought other things in the past, like the Shed ender which was very hard to use and not much better than just brush. This one is amazing. It is easy to use and really gets the hair out and the pets love it. We even used it on Thomas our spoiled rotten cat who usually hates everything, He loves it. It is expensive but works GREAT! It also makes their hair shiney and silky. I love the furminator!!!

Wonderful Weekend

Our weekend started out great. Kevin and Ryan went to the movies, shopping and to IHOP Friday night. I got to stay home and scrap. I got 12 pages done. I was so happy. It was also wonderful for Ryan to have some time away from me. When he got home he was so pumped up he couldn't wait to tell me everything. It was really cute.

Saturday I got up at 7:30AM and Julia and I went to Archiver's for their make it take it weekend. They had some GREAT sales going on, we had GREAT coupons and got lots of goodies. The make it take its were good, but it always makes me spend more money because I want all the supplies to do them again. We had a lot of fun. When we got home Kevin went to play golf and Ryan I went to an auction with Dad. Ryan was just dying to go. He was very well behaved there and had lots of fun. But the best part is he showed some independence. He went to the little snack area by himself, let David take him to the bathroom and even waited inside while i took stuff to the car. These are all big deals for Ryan, he is really attached again, now that we spend 24/7 together with no school to break it up. He is getting really nervous about school.

Sunday I an still in my jammies and just chilling. I have been very busy this weekend, so now I am relaxing. Sorry to all those who called and or e-mailed me I will gt back to you ll today. I haven't even checked my e-mails yet. I haven't been on the PC much. So that is our weekend. Hope yours was great. Chow.

13 Reasons I love being a Stay at home Mom

1. I don't have to miss anything, I am there for all the big moments.
2. I don't have to trust a strange with my baby.
3. I know no one can hurt him.
4. I am so close to my son.
5. I never have to leave him when he is sick.
6. I get to take Ryan to special places.
7. I can suppose his class/teacher.
8. I have time for crafts ( like wart hogs)
9. I can teach by example, not worry about it others influence all day.
10. I am always there when he needs me.
11. He brightens my every day.
12. I learn from my son.
13. I get to see the world through his eyes,. (wow what a world)

Bonus I get to spend my days chasing dog, catching bugs and coloring.

This was an easy one I could have gone on forever.

Little Fisherman

Here are pictures from our fishing trip we took tonight. Ryan was dying to go fishing and asked Kevin to take him Monday. SO Kevin bought Ryan the rocket fishing rod he has been dying for and got his fishing stuff together on Tuesday. Well Ryan couldn't wait until the weekend so we went up to the club tonight and fished. Ryan was in Heaven!! We fished for about 2 and half hours. The heat was horrible even late in the evening. Oh well. We caught about 15 fish. Ryan was dying to catch one on his rod and finally did. He caught lots on our poles but he had to have one on his. He even hooked the fish himself. (My Dad use to hook them and let us pull them in.) It was a very nice family night.

Rabblings

I am 4 days into my no caffeine. The first few days were horrible, I had terrible headaches and felt like poopy!! I fell better now. I am thinking of cutting out pop all together. I don't know if I can do that but I am drinking a lot more water and other things now that I am not drinking caffeine. Why would I put myself through this you ask? Well it is suppose to help with my insomnia and general health so I am giving it a try.

Ryan and I went for a very refreshing swim this afternoon. And we may go fishing tonight IF he ever cleans up the family room. I cannot get that child to clean anything up without a major fight. We have taken the stuff away from him that he won't clean up, tried bribing him to clean his room. Nothing works I am about to pull out my hair. I am so tired of it!!

I have a lot to do today but I am a bit tired and don't feel like doing any of it. I have straightened up the living room and done the dishes but that is where it ends. I really want to scrap. I just can't get down there and get anything done without being interrupted. Oh this weekend Archiver's is having more make it take it's and we get extra hours and a free gift, so I am pumped. I can't wait. Maybe that will motivate me to get some stuff done.

Well I guess I have babbled enough. As you can see nothing much going on around here. I must go and run some errands. Good bye for now.

Pretty

Here are the pretty flowers my Dad brought over and put in my pond for our luau. Somehow I got to keep them, they are blooming now. Ryan has pushed them all over to one side so he can still see his fish and play in the pond. We even have frogs on the lily pads but I can't get close enough to get a picture of one on it. I'll have Ryan try.